good morning?

it’s 2pm. does that mean i can say good morning since I just woke up? haha. yes but in my defense, i did go to bed at 5am!!!! and I didn’t wake up at 2am, i woke up at 1:45pm thankyouverymuch! hahahaha.

Yesterday for school, i finally had to do something that I felt was “challenging.” It kept my attention!! hahahaha.. but other than that, school is a joke. oh well.

I’m HUNgry!!! dude!! Gonna go eat. bye!

remember that midterm?

remember that midterm? The one that I was almost done with. Well i’m not done with it yet but I am writing the last answer as I type… well not as I type because i can’t type on two computers at the same time. That would be impressive though.

I hate school, have I mentioned that yet? Thought I would drop that by again.

almost done with take home final.

So i still hate school. with a passion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ARGH!!!! But I have a take home midterm and I’ve done 3 out of the four questions… i’m on my way.

Before I did my take home midterm, I did preggy pictures of my preggy friend!! She has a basketball belly!! She’s due in one month. So off we went for a photoshoot. it was sooo much fun! I get a little “laughy” and kookie when i do art because i get so darn happy. Now why can’t school be cooky and funny and laughy like art?!??!!? I’m also taking a class called Theology, Worship and the arts. We did an art project and whenever we did art, i could NOT stop laughing. I told you, when i do things i love, i get kookie and laughy!! And why can’t I do this full time?!?! I WILL when i’m done with this HORRENDOUS SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So if you want to see my preggy friend, <—- click there and go to my blog and see her basketball belly!

Yahoo-za, i wanna do photography all day, all night, and all the time in between.

Well, on a more positive note, at least I’ll be a very edumacated photographer

i hate school.

i fricken haaate school!!!!!!!!!! I hate it!!!! I can’t stand it!! I want to drrop out NOOOOOW!!!! But… i only have one more year. or maybe even 1.5 so I think i will endure. but just so you know, I HATE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

too smart for my own good.

dammit! dammit! dammit!! what do i do lord! I’m too damn smart for my own good. and now school is too easy. and now i don’t know how to get over my classes. Why don’t i just do the damn work. shit.

no more rain. happy leila for some reason.

Sooooo, i dunno what it is but i feel happy right now. i guess i’m eating from one of the fruits of the spirit… i dunno. Just happy. Just feel smiley.

I was seriously frustrated with school. oh well… i’ll still pass. but damn does it feel like shit to not get good grades. damn!!!

Lord, we’ll talk. we’ll talk about grades… we’ll definitely talk about grades!

i hate school.

I ABSOLUTELY, POSITIVELY, QUANTITIVELY HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I learned that I’m “really smart,” very intelligent, very bright… i’m so bright that school is too easy for me. I’m in grad school and I think the things the class tells me to do are a waste of my freakin time! I don’t like doing the work i’m asked to do, i’m not interested in the subject matter therefore I don’t put in the effort, I feel like i’m here out of obedience and as a result i’m learning what i need to learn and i’m half-assing everything else. I am soooo irritated and sooooooooo angry!!! wtf!! i’m also asian and i’m used to getting A’s and B’s in school and I do NOT get C’s. i do NOT get average grades unless i was really struggling in that class.

Maybe i’m trying to be a perfectionist. maybe I’m trying to get all my kudos from school.

NO I AM NOT!!!!!!!!!

This school shit that i’m supposed to be doing is STUPID. It’s not that i’m not studious because I AM. I’m SUPER studious… but i don’t want to be here. I don’t want to do this shit but I feel like this is where i’m supposed to be. Lord, maybe i’m supposed to just take this shit by the reins and make a choice!!!!!!!! God i’m so sad that i’m getting bad grades and yet i’m TOTALLY UNMOTIVATED to do the work to get me grades. it’s just a bunch of bull SHIT!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

it’s raining, it’s pouring, the old man is snoring….

went to bed and bumped his head and couldn’t get up in the morning. Har Har Har. Today was WEIRD! It was cloudy and overcast then it turned into HAIL then back to sunny then rainy then HAIL and then drizzle with a bit of sunshine over the horizon, and now i’m in class and it’s WARM. oh me, oh my. Now I’m in class, frustrated with the work I have to do. i wish school systems were just different. Oh well. I’m excited for SUNDAY because I get to go to church! haha. who would’ve thought I would say that I was excited to go to CHURCH. not me!! I was so against church, so against going and just irritated and bothered by it. Not that I’m not blessed, it just wasn’t my time to go and people couldn’t understand that. people couldn’t understand that i needed a break. or maybe they did get it and i was the one uncomfortable… no they were.. or they were and i knew it and it just made me uncomfortable. i dunno.

Anyway, I can’t WAIT to do more and more pictures!! pictures, pictures, pictures!! I want pictures. I want to take pictures and I want to snap snap snap!! So anyway, i’m supposed to do Ingrid this saturday for a photoshoot (maybe) and if not her then maybe Joy and Christian.. but for sure Maria on Monday. I hope things don’t fall out. i hope things follow through.